This last year I have found myself in a lonely place. At times I felt so extremely lonely I kept wondering who I could talk to about my loneliness and my changes. Someone other than Kim Ove who would understand and support me.

I live in a small town where everyone has an idea on how one should dress and behave. And since I don’t fit in with that and have spent my days at home due to covid-19 and online classes I became lonely. Due to how I dress and behaves I certainly should live in a big city. Except that I don’t like to live in a big city, I love living in a small town where I can have an big house at the same price as a small apartment in the big city. I love having a lawn that is big enough for our future kids to play on and don’t have to be afraid that they will disapear or run out on the road. I love that I can sit on my porch and relax and listen to nature instead of neighbours.

And yet here I am feeling judge by others because I like to wear nice dresses, high heels and red lipstick. I feel that others are judging me for how I am as a person, and because I don’t fit into their standards on how one should think, be and dress according to where I live.

And I know that I shouldn’t let that affect me and I am usually very good at that and I do have amazing friends that do support me and understands my need to improve myself and wear what ever clothing, makeup or shoes that will give me a confidence that is so good that I feel like I can take on anything that is thrown my way. And I know that if covid-19 didn’t hit us I would have spent so much more time with them, but now it’s not that easy since we live in different towns and we all have our own lives and obligations.

But I do know that they will always be there to support me in whatever state I am in. And they know that I will always be there for them.

Emilie Cathrin ♡